BIG FAT EXCUSES

Well, its been a while since my last blog - the craziness of life swept me up and I have been treading water for a while ;) However, blogging about my weight loss and the journey to get there is a helpful, self-reflective project. One that will not only help me when I write my book, go on Oprah and have my own TV Show (ahem - just a few minor goals) but will also help me lay to rest old “fat” demons that haunt anyone who had lost weight and works to keep it off.


Losing weight has been one of the greatest achievements in my life. For years I hid behind excuses, fear and reasons why I was obese. These excuses kept me from seeing the truth. The truth, as I have come to see it, is that I needed to change my entire life in order to be the person I wanted to be. That was an unfathomable idea to me for a long time, and one that felt rather selfish.

Here are some of my excuses:

When I was fat I told myself I was big boned

No really - I did. I had a big frame and hence that's why I wore I size 22 pant. Yeh...doesn’t really add up now does it.

When I was fat I told myself I was happy being “the big girl”

I wasn’t happy!!! I made people laugh, and I laughed along with them.Having fun and being funny is just my nature, but what I saw in the mirror, late at night, behind closed doors, was not funny - not too me.

When I was fat I told people I was not a runner

Well yeh, hauling 300 lbs off the couch was more than enough work! It wasn’t just running, exercise in general was very uncomfortable. My muscles were tight, my cardio sucked and I felt like a fool - it was embarrassing being that fat girl doing a squat!
No wonder it took my until after childbirth to lose weight... the sheer humiliation of being examined and inspected by your doctors, your doctors students, the nurses, your OB and probably a few others who happened to be hanging around, leaves you with no shame or discretion at all ;)

So, I lived behind a wall of excuses as to why it didn’t matter if I was overweight. Once you build that wall so high you forget its even there. You can’t see over the top to the other side, so you begin to get comfortable with yourself. Dairy Queen every night won’t hurt -will it? Hamburger Helper for dinner is a fine choice - right? Another roll of fat on my tummy can be disguised in this sweater - can’t it?

If any of these excuses sound familiar just take a good look around. There is probably a wall surrounding you, a wall of lies, excuses and reasons as to why it is ok to stay fat.

It is not ok to be fat, and, what’s more....it is ok to be selfish! Spend the money on a trainer, get a gym membership, buy better food. Do what it takes to make you healthy and be a little selfish. We do actually deserve it :)